im seriously so sick of working. but b'cos i promise my mother i cant quit now and i have to work till school reopen. working is getting more and more boring. it makes me getting more insane. and it is causing me to have lack of sleep. im so tired each day when i go to work. carmen says i have more weird action nowadays.

im mentally and physically tired. i don't want to go work. i want to stay at home to watch tv. i want to go out to play. i think alot when im working esp when i work at disel when i have totally nothing to do. i thought about life and death. about karma. how i hurt someone and feeling so sorry. think think think. when one is alone, one will tend to think alot. your mind can just wander around. agree?

i dno why im posting such an emo post. is so unlike me. i remembered carmen says this, the last thing on her mind will be i will get depression. :) i don't want to be emo. i want to be happy forever. but can i?

maybe all the time, im just wearing a mask, putting a brave front. and now i realized i have failed terribly.



anyway, i really felt so dumb getting lost in singapore. don't laugh, alright. the feeling is so horrible.





im very so tired.
i just feel like crying out of sudden.
lead me to a deep sleep, anyone?